bambi_621

Awsome Play!

Fri, 29 Apr 2005 17:36:23 GMT

Went to go see Mandie in Jekyll and Hyde, with Matt and Sean. This was my second time seeing it. My mom went as well with her friend Tami, now she I going to try to get my dad to go. This is the last weekend it is playing so I hope he will go.
Found out today that I won't be starting at Bryman until June. The stupid counselor, who was extremely unorganized said that I would be able to start May 5th, on the 10-2 schedule. Well it turns out they aren't offering that for the month of May, and I was getting all ready to start next week. No matter, Keri's mom offered me a part time job working at her massage therapy place as a secretary. It will only be once a week but at least when I graduate from Bryman, I can put on my resume that I have previous experience in that environment.

Guess its been awhile.

Mon, 18 Apr 2005 02:38:43 GMT

Wow! Guess I forgot all about this place, crazy! Just got back from Branson, It was a fantastic trip...I'm over-exaggerating, It was pretty dull, the weather was horrible, but at least I got to spend some good quality time with my family.
Found out some new news, my friends Aimee and Jason had a baby boy Lex. One of my best friends from high school is engaged to her high school sweetheart, and I was asked to be a bridesmaid! I am so excited!
I got a tough week ahead, I am quitting one of my jobs, and really don't know how to go about it, I haven't worked there for over a month. I did talk to the manager about two weeks ago, telling him to put me on the schedule for the 18th, but he had mentioned that he would wait for me to call him then. Well, I never did, and in case he might have put me on the schedule, I really really don't want to work there tomorrow. So should I call tomorrow and quit? Or just let it go? Pretend I didn't know I was supposed to come in. Or give my two week notice? So confused, I know I am going to get people pissed off at me at whatever I do...

Heres another!

Wed, 23 Feb 2005 16:50:41 GMT

You are RYAN DUNN! The guy who put the car up his
butt. Well, he is my personal favorite, and
that situation with the car proved that he
really is a guy to rely on. When no one else
will do something, you will. You aren't afraid
to try something new, even if it means hurting
your ego. You love having a good time, and you
love being recognized. Overall, you are just
one hell of a person!

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Thu, 17 Feb 2005 06:13:06 GMT

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Concerned

Sat, 29 Jan 2005 21:03:25 GMT

I had a pretty good night last night. Matt, Wess and I went to see my cousins band "The Infernals" play. They seemed to really enjoy it. I felt bad at first, dragging these two guys to some dumpy bar, but all and all it worked out well. Afterwards we went back to Wess's dorm, talked and drank til 2. I feel pretty bad for Matt he has been with this girl off and on for about 3 years. He is so in love with her, but she has broken his heart repeatedly, and then wants him back in her life just to do it again in 2 months. He always goes back, and keeps saying thats the only girl he will marry! It looks like its happening again, I don't know how he can take it, but I guess love makes you do crazy things. He also told me that he is giving her space because she has been depressed...He hasn't talked to her for 2 weeks. I hope everything works out for him.

Tonight, after work I am going to see my ex Sean play at the Rock. My cousin (from the infernals)is gonna come as well. I am intrested to see what she thinks.

"Tina come get some ham"

Fri, 28 Jan 2005 05:20:11 GMT

On a new kick right now, recently got started on Friendster and myspace. Really like myspace, but friendster is something else. Some guy started talking to me on there, and I thought he was a nice enough guy at first but then started getting creepy (telling me I am fucking hot over and over). Like an idiot I gave him my aim name, and we started talking on that for like a day. Then he tells me that we should go out that night. I said I didn't feel comfortable meeting just yet cause I didn't know him that well, thinking he would be understanding. I was so wrong he starts going off on me telling me how much "hates people in Minnesota cause they never want to get off the fat ass and do something." Who says that??? I talked to him for a total of two days tops on messenger and emails. It wasn't like we had long conversations either. All and all I think I talked to him for like a total 20min in 2 days. I knew what his problem was, I have met people like him before, they hate themselves so much that they are bitter to everyone else they meet, so they can bring you to their level. Very negative people. Needless to say, we are no longer friends. I have been meeting some pretty cool people on myspace, thats probably why I like the site so much better than friendster.

Hopefully going to have a nice day tomorrow. Mandie doesn't have school, probably going to watch some movies, I also hope she can take some pictures of me for myspace. The pic I have up is from like 3 years ago. Then after work going to see me cousins band play @ that Cabooze??? I think thats what its called.
Thankfully I got my buddy Matt W. (different Matt that I talked about before) going with me. Then if we still want something to do got a party to go to. Sounds pretty good to me!

Survey

Mon, 17 Jan 2005 01:11:12 GMT

LAST MOVIE YOU SAW IN A THEATER:	Phantom of the Opera
WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING NOW:	Wuthering Heights
FAVORITE BOARD GAME:	Life
FAVORITE MAGAZINE:	Cosmo!
FAVORITE SMELLS:	Axe deoderant spray on men
COMFORT FOOD:	Ramen
FAVORITE SOUNDS:	my cats purring
WORST FEELING IN THE WORLD:	being alone
WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU THINK OF WHEN YOU WAKE UP IN THE MORNING:	Damn it!
FAVORITE FAST FOOD PLACE:	Pizza Hut, I guess, I eat it like everyday
FUTURE CHILD'S NAME:	Esme and Gunther
FINISH THIS STATEMENT: "IF I HAD A LOT OF MONEY, I WOULD":	Buy alot of food
DO YOU DRIVE FAST:	only on 77
DO YOU SLEEP WITH A STUFFED ANIMAL:	better REAL animals
STORMS -- COOL OR SCARY:	Awsome! Storm chase with my dad
WHAT WAS YOUR FIRST CAR:	1998 Nissan Altima
FAVORITE ALCOHOLIC DRINK:	Sex on the Beach
FINISH THIS STATEMENT,'IF I HAD THE TIME, I WOULD LOVE TO':	Play Sims all day long
DO YOU EAT THE STEMS OF BROCCOLI:	Gosh No!
IF YOU COULD DYE YOUR HAIR ANY COLOR, WHAT WOULD YOU CHOOSE:	I love Red hair, but it would never look good on me
GLASS HALF-EMPTY OR FULL:	half-empty
HOW MANY CITIES/TOWNS HAVE YOU LIVED IN:	a whopping 1!
FAVORITE PLACE TO RELAX:	My Bed?!?!?
FAVORITE SPORT TO WATCH:	Football
WHAT IS UNDER YOUR BED:	probably dust bunnies
TOILET PAPER/ PAPER TOWEL--OVER OR UNDER:	WHAT THE FUCK DOES THAT MEAN!!??
CREATE YOUR OWN! - or - GET PAID TO TAKE SURVEYS!

At Last!

Thu, 06 Jan 2005 19:11:16 GMT

Ahhh! Relaxation at last! Everything is finally back to normal. Quite a hectic season I must say, but it's great to see all my friends home from school. I actually have this week off from work, cause I started my new semester and Denise didn't know my schedule. No complaints here! I have a night class tonight, but I would really like to go shopping before that. I have all these gift certificates from Christmas. I would also like to go to the gym and clean my room! I have all these plan for today but you know I will just sit at home and play sims... My co-worker came over the other day to fix my computer, I had a error that wouldn't allow me to play sims(oh no!). He fixed it so now I can waste countless hours in front of my computer. It's way too addicting! Well I am going to try to make the most of my day and get ready to go out!

can't complain

Mon, 20 Dec 2004 22:46:21 GMT

Never heard back from my ex. I am sure he is in town now, which means he might not have checked his email yet. It really isn't bothering me as much as since I last posted. Actually I haven't really thought about it until today. Its not worth the time in the effort.

Rodeo on friday wasn't too great. Sara and I went to La fondas to meet Matt, he was really excited to see me (really surprised). We went out to Perkins after the bars closed. Sara liked Matt, she even said she didn't understand why people didn't like him. That made me so pleased to hear that someone else sees him the way I do. Matt's past works against him, but he is a really nice guy once you get to know him. Which not that many people I know have, including my parents. He paid for everything that night, and didn't need to. It turned out to be a good night.

Saturday I worked and then went over to Katies and Mandies. It was great to see Katie again. Sounds like we are going dancing on Wednesday at Stargate. We haven't gone there in months. Well since we've been 21. We should have fun, working on getting some more people to join us.

Tonight after work I am meeting up with my co-workers from the body shop @ TGI Fridays. Not sure if I will go out with Meg afterwards to the bars or not. We shall see!!!

{Sigh}

Fri, 17 Dec 2004 22:55:01 GMT

Don't feel too great right now. Just heard back from my ex saying he will be able to come home for Christmas, but I will not be able to see him because his "girlfriend/fiance?" will be coming home with him as well, and he doesn't think its a good idea that we meet because she knows about our past. So I won't even be able to see him, which I feel pretty bad about. He never told me about her until today in an email, cause he couldn't tell me by phone. I wish things could have been different, I in no means want him back or wish we stayed together. I just wish he would hold me in a higher respect. I wish he could have felt that he could be open with me and tell me anything. It wouldn't have hurt me if he would have said I have met someone, earlier. I would have actually been happy for him. I told him in the email that he deserves all of lifes happiness, which is true. I fully admit that I wasn't right for him as a girlfriend, but with that I thought we formed a really strong bond as friends, I guess I was wrong! That is why I feel so terrible right now. I am not mad at him by any means, just hurt. I respect his reasoning for not wanting to see me, being put in her shoes it would be an awkward situation. She obviously feels threatened by me, because he stated that "she knows our past." What past? We dated 4 years ago, then became friends. Why couldn't he have brought me up to her as his FRIEND other than his ex-girlfriend??? She does have a right to know, I just wonder what he could have told her that made me so scary. Or maybe its completely opposite, maybe HE is worried about seeing me? He has said, when we have seen each other in the past that he still has love for me... I think I just stumbled upon it! That must be why she feels threatened.

Moving on, after work tonight I am going to Rodeo with Sara. I don't have to worry about getting up early so I hope to have a good time. Sounds like the trip to Mankato is off, I would really like to go, its just not working with my schedule. I also really want to hang out with Mandie and Katie, so hopefully I will be able to do that instead.

Grow up Lazy!

Fri, 17 Dec 2004 07:09:56 GMT

I didn't have to work today, so of course I was lazy! Mom came home early from work. Yet another reason why I want to get my own place, no privacy even on my days off. I shouldn't say that, it sounds like I dislike my parents, when it is quite the opposite. I have a great relationship with my parents. We still go out and do things together as a family, and I enjoy that. I don't always see eye to eye with them, but thats not abnormal. I do feel that I have grown far to dependent on them. Thankfully with my jobs I am turning that around. I would just like them to treat me more as an adult, and I think the only way for that to happen is if I move out. Hopefully sometime next year I will be able to achieve that. I do think that being an only child is one of the main reasons why I am still at home at 21. They don't want me to leave.
I am not real excited about this next week. I will work everyday til Christmas. yes, even Christmas Eve. The lovely world of retail~yay! I plan on going out tomorrow night after work. Sounds like we are going to Rodeo. Then on Saturday there is a party in Mankato, I close on saturday and work at 1 on sunday, so hopefully I will be able to make an appearance. Katie is coming home too!!!

I'm no flibbity ibbity jibbit

Fri, 17 Dec 2004 05:32:41 GMT

So glad I finally got this started! I'm always online, it only seemed right to create an online journal. I was kinda uneasy about writing personal feelings in here, but why cheat myself. If there is something I want to say or an emotion I am feeling I am just gonna let it out in here, mostly just to help myself deal. I shouldn't have to feel ashamed for things that I am feeling, and with this I hope to conquer that.